Painting everything White.

The funny thing about feeling sad is that i tend to create a lot of space. Because oftentimes,I think the feeling like this kind of lonely or sad is a product of an overcrowded space. an over crowded mind. and maybe a really over crowded heart.

And so, i decluttered my blogspot. I changed pictures, font colors, some writings. For a moment I stared at my new spot's appearance and agree that white has made it brighter. less constricted. more fluid. more happy?

If it was that easy to admit, I would be the first one to shout it out on the rooftops.

If things were created simple, everything else would fall into place.

If I can only, I will.

If I weren't too scared, it might be.

I wish for it, I pray for it. I know it is something I will always hold in my heart. Together with the white picket fences and the lazy weekend afternoons spent baking cupcakes and making lemonades. I KNOW. I WISH.

If, But. When. Why. Only. Then... I wish. Sigh.

But, well. It's just really. NEVER.

Bib Necklaces and More

What better way to cure an inexplicable sadness than online shopping?

Today I woke up feeling much better. The little bird that tweeted that I am sad deep down has finally stopped tweeting. And I figured, it may be a bit baseless, but the bird has a point. So instead of whining and pining, I finished my article due this morning and read my mails. Opened one after another and finally, as always checked out recent FB updates. And as expected, it's the same banana as yesterday.

I refuse to over-analyze the emotions. Before I went to bed last night, I know I am a drama queen by nature. I always have been. And these bizarre sadness/loneliness that I feel have always been the shadow creatures that have constantly occupied a nearby space in my overly crowded universe. It's not something that is really comprehensible. Besides, I am not looking or itching to explain it either.

And with this knowledge, I tell myself, no I remind myself that I am fine with the rate my life is going. And I admit that Yen is right in all arguments. I am tired of speculating. And I am definitely sick of it. So whatever goes. This is finally it. I HOPE.

And so, before I blurt out further realizations and monologues, I'm gonna stop. And enjoy the world of online shopping :)

Dig the Bib. Bib Necklaces for simple fashion and is definitely included in my top ten wishlist for 2010.



Some creations are really great. Check out sulit.com, ayosdito.ph and of course, multiply. I've found just one and I seriously hope it'd be shipped on time. For what? I have no idea.

But who cares right? it's pretty. Pretty damn Good.