Racing to WIN

I ran my first kilometer in months!

and as i feel the wind, my foot on solid ground, i felt my lungs burn, my muscles move and my mind race. and i've never felt so alive. never felt this good too.

Been so long since I ran, I forgot how much I love it.

Lil one went with me and watched me as I go lap after lap and cheered me on like a pro squad: "go for the gold, ma" she screamed and screamed lolz the little rascal always, always supported me in my every endeavor. :)

And we walked the cool down laps together, baby steps, hand in hand and we talked about how beautiful it is to be just outside. She told me about the stars she saw during Science Day and described in detail how they twinkle and create pictures in the sky.



I told her about constellations and the planets far away and she too started her story about fungus in barbieland.. and how it's just a figment of MY imagination-- made me realize how much she has grown!

My baby isn't a baby anymore!! Well, she will always my baby... the same little bundle I cradle at night. BUT she's just growing and growing everyday.

I have NORMAL conversations with her. She voices out her opinion. rarely throws fits for no reason anymore. has learned to draw stick people (with my fave: Mom and Coco with curly hair hihi). She doesn't wear her diapers anymore, refuses to eat pork cuz she says it's not healthy...

Tonight, she told me she doesn't wanna use duckie anymore. Cuz she could sit on the toilet seat without falling into it. AND it just hit me!

You see, the world really doesn't stop, and this lil baby I have is my only reason why things are moving forward.

I am lucky to have such a wonderful daughter. I am lucky to be a mother. And I don't wanna waste any moment of this beautiful luck, because my very existence is defined by being a mother to Coco.

It is because of this luck, I want to continuously improve myself and the life that me and my daughter have. I know it's a bit too early for resolutions but I have made my headstart for 2011 just cause I want to start it better.

This year, I've had a million surprises. A handful opportunities and an infinite number of blessings.

As I want the luck to go on until next, I am taking my faith and hope in my palm and hold my heart for my God to keep.



And I told myself, this crazy ass positive change that I want to happen is really trying. But by just remembering that it is for this lil hand that clasps mine, I have to TOUGH it out.

Did you know that the best things in life happen after you stumble? And that the best aren't always what we have planned out but have accidentally discovered?

Well... tonight, I don't feel so alone anymore. AND I feel like I understand why things happened. All i KNOW is that yes, I am happy. I am not just trying to be a good mother.

I am DOING the little steps. For the little hand that clutches mine, I have all my reason to tough it out. Yes, go for gold.

Daydreaming with an Open Mind

Little one tagged along at work today. Spent a few hours playing with iphoto, playing hide and seek, going around with mom's friends, and doing what she does best: being cute. :)

We also went around to shop for a toddler school. AND i almost wanted to puke at the expense and skyrocket tuition fees. :( I know lil one is better off in somewhere with a non-traditional educational system, and she needs to be in a group of kids her age. But the cost of it all, makes me a bit sad. How the hell did tuition fees become that expensive in like, a zap??

I tagged her along so she could choose which one she likes best, but I'm thinking that since she's still considered as a visitor, why pay an exorbitant sum yet? I

She IS a fast learner, she IS extremely inquisitive and she IS really eloquent too. I want something that would help her learn some finesse, help her bring out her artistic side and maybe encourage her to sing and dance more, since she awfully IS good at these!

And I wanted her to make new friends too. Cuz she loves being with people, and you can see her eyes twinkle when she says: Tagu-taguan na.. My friend T told me Coco shouldn't be attending school just yet, cuz she's too young. And that she'll probably lose interest in education when she grows older. BUT when you see your lil gurl having this potential to have an increased 7+ IQ points, could it be sooo bad to actually try and see if this gets any better?

All depends on lil one's decision though. Her interest in school and activities will tell me if it's time to send her to school.

Tonight, we marinated the Honey Lemon Chicken i'm baking for tomorrow's lunch. And she informed me maybe a bit of cayenne pepper should be tossed in. And I grin at the idea, cuz ever since she learned that she could salt, squeeze a bit of lemon and sprinkle some pepper, she has taken this as her personal mission to be my cooking aide.



AND I am surprised at how quickly she picks up.

And so, I dream of my lil one becoming a chef one day. Some days, I think she's going to be ballet dancer. Others, I think a model or an actress. Sometimes, I feel like she really is going to be a nurse or a teacher. And my foremost wish of her to become a doctor. Who knows? She might even be the next Philippine President :D

Yesterday, she wanted to be Ariel the little mermaid. Today, she wanted to be like Mommie- crazy kick ass beautiful LOL. And she gives me a noisy smooch and a bear hug and says a LOUD Good Night Ma, Mwah mwah.

Aww I just love my lil gurl. And Ariel, Chef, Dancer, Mother, Teacher, Nurse, Doctor.... whatever she wants to be!!