There's a lot of drama in most of our lives.
There are people who choose to ignore the beauty of drama.
And there are those who live in the drama of it all.
I belong to the many who live within the beautiful scenes of the play and watched it unfold act after act. The only difference here is that I find it more profound to write things and thoughts and chronicle most of it down.
Yesterday, a thought came to me: that i can never be in a relationship when i want it to be so badly, impossibly perfect. But do we strive to attain a perfect relationship by finding the perfect formula? Or is it in the events? In the choices we make?
Or is it in perfecting ourselves?
Or in finding the perfect man?
Ah, the perfect man!
The perfect man is someone who can tolerate my worst and even love me for it. I know such a man. But i am not sure if fate understands our existence.
The perfect man is someone persevering. Constant in his actions and in his words. And even in his ambitions to better himself. I know such a man. But i am not sure if i am ready to love him.
The perfect man is someone who is perfectly my yin to my yang. The shrimps to my olio, the missing puzzle to my otherwise perfectly crafted life.
I know such a man but i don't think we can ever be.
And that marks the perfect man spelling out the perfect relationship an utter impossibility.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Surprise, surprise the world isn't all too bad
I have THAT again- waking up in the middle of the night and not falling back to sleep. I don't know if it has to do with age and stress. Or with age and age.
Not even facebook helps.
Do you ever get this?
A few days back, I have been asked if I were happy. And for a moment, I was tongue-tied, stammering, dumbfounded too. Maybe because it has been TOO long since I have been asked such and maybe because, I frankly don't know the answer yet.
Happiness is something very personal for me. It's not just the laughter that I am able to laugh now, or the smiles I give out every single day. I'm not even sure if it's just the contentment in work, stability in finances or the peace of my family home. Maybe, happiness is the whole of everything.
Or maybe Happiness is the thrill of chasing it all.
And being asked such is usually something that comes within my personal space. But it didn't, so I was surprised. And maybe pleasantly so.
It got me thinking too, and realized that there are still people - almost strangers- who are sensitive enough to ask a question.
And it's a welcome change to an otherwise jaded perspective. :)
Well, surprise, surprise.
Not even facebook helps.
Do you ever get this?
A few days back, I have been asked if I were happy. And for a moment, I was tongue-tied, stammering, dumbfounded too. Maybe because it has been TOO long since I have been asked such and maybe because, I frankly don't know the answer yet.
Happiness is something very personal for me. It's not just the laughter that I am able to laugh now, or the smiles I give out every single day. I'm not even sure if it's just the contentment in work, stability in finances or the peace of my family home. Maybe, happiness is the whole of everything.
Or maybe Happiness is the thrill of chasing it all.
And being asked such is usually something that comes within my personal space. But it didn't, so I was surprised. And maybe pleasantly so.
It got me thinking too, and realized that there are still people - almost strangers- who are sensitive enough to ask a question.
And it's a welcome change to an otherwise jaded perspective. :)
Well, surprise, surprise.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
I got myself a SOLO PARENT ID
Today, I finally got my solo parent ID.
And after much putting off, I finally had the nerve to do the DSWD interview. Not that I was apprehensive of the questions that they will throw my way, I was more scared of the looks my small town folks would give whenever I make the rarer than rare appearances.
The fact that I am a solo parent in this small town still raises some eyebrows.
But, thankfully, I have gotten used to it and I have learned that there is ABSOLUTELY nothing shameful in being a single mother. In fact, I am a proud solo parent. Not everyone can be a good parent. And certainly, not everyone can be a proud SOLO one too.
Why should Solo Parents get this ID? Because RA 8972 has outlined a number of benefits for solo parents that could help us juggle our duties wonderfully. Although solo parents who are considered above poverty level (all of us working solo parents) could not avail of the education, housing and medical appropriations, we are entitled to:
* Additional 7 Days Leave provided that we have (1) rendered at least one (1) year of service; (2) given notice to the employer within reasonable time frame andl (3) presented our SOLO PARENTS ID.
* No Work Discrimination.
* Flexible Working Hours
The Senators of this country are still debating whether to give solo parents the MUCH NEEDED discounts on medicines, hospitalization, diapers, milk, and other baby needs, but hopefully, soon, the SOLO PARENTS ID will have as much power as the SENIOR CITIZENS ( a whopping 20% off on everything necessary!)
I wish we also get some slack in our tax payables.
The SOLO PARENTS ID can be claimed from your DSWD Office, with the following requirements to be presented:
1. Barangay Certification (Proof of Residency and Testament of Solo Parenting)
2. Certificate of Employment/Income Tax Return(Proof of Income)
3. 2 1x1 ID pictures (Proof of existence, lolz!)
We are to fill up this form that contains some questions like: Solo Parents Needs? and Solo Parents Family composition. And then proceed to the signing of the form and then, finally the ID.
I don't really get it too, but it feels good to have this one in my wallet. :)
To Read more on the act:
THE RA 8972 or Solo Parents Welfare Act
Republic Act No. 8972 or the “Solo Parents’ Welfare Act of 2000”is the Philippine law on single parents. It was promulgated on November 7, 2000.
The law provides comprehensive program of services for solo parents and their children to be carried out by the Department of Social Welfare and Development (DSWD), the Department of Health (DOH), the Department of Education, Culture and Sports (DECS), the Department of the Interior and Local Government (DILG), the Commission on Higher Education (CHED), the Technical Education and Skills Development Authority (TESDA), the National Housing Authority (NHA), the Department of Labor and Employment (DOLE) and other related government and non-government agencies. (Sec.2, RA 8972)
You are considered a single parent if you are:
[1] A woman who gives birth as a result of rape and other crimes against chastity even without a final conviction of the offender: Provided, That the mother keeps and raises the child;
[2] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to death of spouse;
[3] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood while the spouse is detained or is serving sentence for a criminal conviction for at least one (1) year;
[4] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to physical and/or mental incapacity of spouse as certified by a public medical practitioner;
[5] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to legal separation or de facto separation from spouse for at least one (1) year, as long as he/she is entrusted with the custody of the children;
[6] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to declaration of nullity or annulment of marriage as decreed by a court or by a church as long as he/she is entrusted with the custody of the children;
[7] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to abandonment of spouse for at least one (1) year;
[8] Unmarried mother/father who has preferred to keep and rear her/his child/children instead of having others care for them or give them up to a welfare institution;
[9] Any other person who solely provides parental care and support to a child or children;
[10] Any family member who assumes the responsibility of head of family as a result of the death, abandonment, disappearance or prolonged absence of the parents or solo parent.
A change in the status or circumstance of the parent claiming benefits under this Act, such that he/she is no longer left alone with the responsibility of parenthood, shall terminate his/her eligibility for these benefits.
Who are considered as “children” under RA 8972?
The term “children” refers to those living with and dependent upon the solo parent for support who are unmarried, unemployed and not more than eighteen (18) years of age, or even over eighteen (18) years but are incapable of self-support because of mental and/or physical defect/disability.
*THE GOVERNMENT AGENCIES
A comprehensive package of social development and welfare services for solo parents and their families will be developed by the DSWD, DOH, DECS, CHED, TESDA, DOLE, NHA and DILG, in coordination with local government units and a nongovernmental organization with proven track record in providing services for solo parents.
The DSWD shall coordinate with concerned agencies the implementation of the comprehensive package of social development and welfare services for solo parents and their families.
What are included in this package of services for single parents?
The package of services will initially include:
(a) Livelihood development services which include trainings on livelihood skills, basic business management, value orientation and the provision of seed capital or job placement.
(b) Counseling services which include individual, peer group or family counseling. This will focus on the resolution of personal relationship and role conflicts.
(c) Parent effectiveness services which include the provision and expansion of knowledge and skills of the solo parent on early childhood development, behavior management, health care, rights and duties of parents and children.
(d) Critical incidence stress debriefing which includes preventive stress management strategy designed to assist solo parents in coping with crisis situations and cases of abuse.
(e) Special projects for individuals in need of protection which include temporary shelter, counseling, legal assistance, medical care, self-concept or ego-building, crisis management and spiritual enrichment.
*FLEXIBLE WORK SCHEDULE
It is the right granted to a solo parent employee to vary his/her arrival and departure time without affecting the core work hours as defined by the employer. Under Section 6 of RA 8972, the employer shall provide for a flexible working schedule for solo parents: Provided, That the same shall not affect individual and company productivity: Provided, further, That any employer may request exemption from the above requirements from the DOLE on certain meritorious grounds.
What about the issue of work discrimination, in terms of job assignments or promotion?
Section 7 of RA 8972 provides that no employer shall discriminate against any solo parent employee with respect to terms and conditions of employment on account of his/her status.
*EDUCATIONAL OPPORTUNITIES
The DECS, CHED and TESDA are mandated to provide the following benefits and privileges:
(1) Scholarship programs for qualified solo parents and their children in institutions of basic, tertiary and technical/skills education; and
(2) Nonformal education programs appropriate for solo parents and their children.
*HOUSING BENEFITS
Solo parents shall be given allocation in housing projects and shall be provided with liberal terms of payment on said government low-cost housing projects in accordance with housing law provisions prioritizing applicants below the poverty line as declared by the NEDA.
*MEDICAL ASSISTANCE
The DOH shall develop a comprehensive health care program for solo parents and their children. The program shall be implemented by the DOH through their retained hospitals and medical centers and the local government units (LGUs) through their provincial/district/city/municipal hospitals and rural health units (RHUs).
And after much putting off, I finally had the nerve to do the DSWD interview. Not that I was apprehensive of the questions that they will throw my way, I was more scared of the looks my small town folks would give whenever I make the rarer than rare appearances.
The fact that I am a solo parent in this small town still raises some eyebrows.
But, thankfully, I have gotten used to it and I have learned that there is ABSOLUTELY nothing shameful in being a single mother. In fact, I am a proud solo parent. Not everyone can be a good parent. And certainly, not everyone can be a proud SOLO one too.
Why should Solo Parents get this ID? Because RA 8972 has outlined a number of benefits for solo parents that could help us juggle our duties wonderfully. Although solo parents who are considered above poverty level (all of us working solo parents) could not avail of the education, housing and medical appropriations, we are entitled to:
* Additional 7 Days Leave provided that we have (1) rendered at least one (1) year of service; (2) given notice to the employer within reasonable time frame andl (3) presented our SOLO PARENTS ID.
* No Work Discrimination.
* Flexible Working Hours
The Senators of this country are still debating whether to give solo parents the MUCH NEEDED discounts on medicines, hospitalization, diapers, milk, and other baby needs, but hopefully, soon, the SOLO PARENTS ID will have as much power as the SENIOR CITIZENS ( a whopping 20% off on everything necessary!)
I wish we also get some slack in our tax payables.
The SOLO PARENTS ID can be claimed from your DSWD Office, with the following requirements to be presented:
1. Barangay Certification (Proof of Residency and Testament of Solo Parenting)
2. Certificate of Employment/Income Tax Return(Proof of Income)
3. 2 1x1 ID pictures (Proof of existence, lolz!)
We are to fill up this form that contains some questions like: Solo Parents Needs? and Solo Parents Family composition. And then proceed to the signing of the form and then, finally the ID.
I don't really get it too, but it feels good to have this one in my wallet. :)
To Read more on the act:
THE RA 8972 or Solo Parents Welfare Act
Republic Act No. 8972 or the “Solo Parents’ Welfare Act of 2000”is the Philippine law on single parents. It was promulgated on November 7, 2000.
The law provides comprehensive program of services for solo parents and their children to be carried out by the Department of Social Welfare and Development (DSWD), the Department of Health (DOH), the Department of Education, Culture and Sports (DECS), the Department of the Interior and Local Government (DILG), the Commission on Higher Education (CHED), the Technical Education and Skills Development Authority (TESDA), the National Housing Authority (NHA), the Department of Labor and Employment (DOLE) and other related government and non-government agencies. (Sec.2, RA 8972)
You are considered a single parent if you are:
[1] A woman who gives birth as a result of rape and other crimes against chastity even without a final conviction of the offender: Provided, That the mother keeps and raises the child;
[2] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to death of spouse;
[3] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood while the spouse is detained or is serving sentence for a criminal conviction for at least one (1) year;
[4] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to physical and/or mental incapacity of spouse as certified by a public medical practitioner;
[5] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to legal separation or de facto separation from spouse for at least one (1) year, as long as he/she is entrusted with the custody of the children;
[6] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to declaration of nullity or annulment of marriage as decreed by a court or by a church as long as he/she is entrusted with the custody of the children;
[7] Parent left solo or alone with the responsibility of parenthood due to abandonment of spouse for at least one (1) year;
[8] Unmarried mother/father who has preferred to keep and rear her/his child/children instead of having others care for them or give them up to a welfare institution;
[9] Any other person who solely provides parental care and support to a child or children;
[10] Any family member who assumes the responsibility of head of family as a result of the death, abandonment, disappearance or prolonged absence of the parents or solo parent.
A change in the status or circumstance of the parent claiming benefits under this Act, such that he/she is no longer left alone with the responsibility of parenthood, shall terminate his/her eligibility for these benefits.
Who are considered as “children” under RA 8972?
The term “children” refers to those living with and dependent upon the solo parent for support who are unmarried, unemployed and not more than eighteen (18) years of age, or even over eighteen (18) years but are incapable of self-support because of mental and/or physical defect/disability.
*THE GOVERNMENT AGENCIES
A comprehensive package of social development and welfare services for solo parents and their families will be developed by the DSWD, DOH, DECS, CHED, TESDA, DOLE, NHA and DILG, in coordination with local government units and a nongovernmental organization with proven track record in providing services for solo parents.
The DSWD shall coordinate with concerned agencies the implementation of the comprehensive package of social development and welfare services for solo parents and their families.
What are included in this package of services for single parents?
The package of services will initially include:
(a) Livelihood development services which include trainings on livelihood skills, basic business management, value orientation and the provision of seed capital or job placement.
(b) Counseling services which include individual, peer group or family counseling. This will focus on the resolution of personal relationship and role conflicts.
(c) Parent effectiveness services which include the provision and expansion of knowledge and skills of the solo parent on early childhood development, behavior management, health care, rights and duties of parents and children.
(d) Critical incidence stress debriefing which includes preventive stress management strategy designed to assist solo parents in coping with crisis situations and cases of abuse.
(e) Special projects for individuals in need of protection which include temporary shelter, counseling, legal assistance, medical care, self-concept or ego-building, crisis management and spiritual enrichment.
*FLEXIBLE WORK SCHEDULE
It is the right granted to a solo parent employee to vary his/her arrival and departure time without affecting the core work hours as defined by the employer. Under Section 6 of RA 8972, the employer shall provide for a flexible working schedule for solo parents: Provided, That the same shall not affect individual and company productivity: Provided, further, That any employer may request exemption from the above requirements from the DOLE on certain meritorious grounds.
What about the issue of work discrimination, in terms of job assignments or promotion?
Section 7 of RA 8972 provides that no employer shall discriminate against any solo parent employee with respect to terms and conditions of employment on account of his/her status.
*EDUCATIONAL OPPORTUNITIES
The DECS, CHED and TESDA are mandated to provide the following benefits and privileges:
(1) Scholarship programs for qualified solo parents and their children in institutions of basic, tertiary and technical/skills education; and
(2) Nonformal education programs appropriate for solo parents and their children.
*HOUSING BENEFITS
Solo parents shall be given allocation in housing projects and shall be provided with liberal terms of payment on said government low-cost housing projects in accordance with housing law provisions prioritizing applicants below the poverty line as declared by the NEDA.
*MEDICAL ASSISTANCE
The DOH shall develop a comprehensive health care program for solo parents and their children. The program shall be implemented by the DOH through their retained hospitals and medical centers and the local government units (LGUs) through their provincial/district/city/municipal hospitals and rural health units (RHUs).
To my Cocobear, my chokeroo...
My Dearest Coco,
I had the most wonderful time tonight. It was amazing helping you dress up in your school uniform for a 'dress rehearsal', arranging and re-arranging your notebooks and pencils, slicing biscochos and watching you march around the house (with your pink trolley and umbrella in tow), knocking on Booboo's door and Lola's room because you wanted to show off that you're really ready for the big school.
But as I watched you pose wacky for Auntie Titin's camera, and as I watched Booboo tie your necktie for you, I suddenly felt a bit selfish that I wanted to keep you a child forever.
OH You're growing up too fast!
As happy and excited I am as you are for the BIG first Big school day, I kinda feel scared too.
I feel like there will be those nights when we won't be reading baby stories, or counting sheep, or painting our nails red- because you'll be spending more time on the laptop like I do. Or God forbid, on your mobile phone.
I know deep in my heart, though, that you will remain sweet to me, your mommie dearest; you never are selfish with your hugs and I love you, Mommies.
And I wish for you to always remember how you always manage to light up everybody's lives whenever you smile, you giggle, you walk into a room... with your mere presence. Because mommie will always have the open arms to embrace back or the I Love Yous to say to you too. And because you are a SPECIAL, special person always remember, especially when you're feeling a bit low, or lonely,that there are US who have become happier because of you.
Now that you'll be in BIG school, I wish for you to remember to be always kind, to never speak an ill word against anybody and to be a good SMALL ate to the new toddlers- just like what you tell me everyday. Because Mommie will continue TRYING to be a better person in every single way.
I wish for you to retain that wild-eye wonder, to constantly ask mommie and teachers, and auntie and lolamie the never-ending questions you always have. Because mommie and your family will never tire trying to answer those questions.
I wish for you to be constantly aware of your efforts, to practice writing your numbers just because you want to write them beautifully. Because Mommie will never tire of filling the fridge door with these "works of art".
You will never fully know, Co, how much you've changed me as a person, or how you have taught me to love truly, unconditionally, purely. Or how much you have put meaning into sooo many people's lives. But I hope you that one day, you will understand how much I really, truly love you. and how much you are truly loved by everyone in the family.
Tonight, Sleep tight and dream those beautiful dreams, baby girl, for there are still a million and one nights for us to do dress rehearsals and to paint our nails- or to listen to the songs and to chase after dreams. There will be more to come, and I promise you, I will always be here to hold you hand. or your trolley, or your umbrella. Or even your pumpkin of a cat.
I love you, baby girl. And that will never, ever change.
Love always,
Mommie
I had the most wonderful time tonight. It was amazing helping you dress up in your school uniform for a 'dress rehearsal', arranging and re-arranging your notebooks and pencils, slicing biscochos and watching you march around the house (with your pink trolley and umbrella in tow), knocking on Booboo's door and Lola's room because you wanted to show off that you're really ready for the big school.
But as I watched you pose wacky for Auntie Titin's camera, and as I watched Booboo tie your necktie for you, I suddenly felt a bit selfish that I wanted to keep you a child forever.
OH You're growing up too fast!
As happy and excited I am as you are for the BIG first Big school day, I kinda feel scared too.
I feel like there will be those nights when we won't be reading baby stories, or counting sheep, or painting our nails red- because you'll be spending more time on the laptop like I do. Or God forbid, on your mobile phone.
I know deep in my heart, though, that you will remain sweet to me, your mommie dearest; you never are selfish with your hugs and I love you, Mommies.
And I wish for you to always remember how you always manage to light up everybody's lives whenever you smile, you giggle, you walk into a room... with your mere presence. Because mommie will always have the open arms to embrace back or the I Love Yous to say to you too. And because you are a SPECIAL, special person always remember, especially when you're feeling a bit low, or lonely,that there are US who have become happier because of you.
Now that you'll be in BIG school, I wish for you to remember to be always kind, to never speak an ill word against anybody and to be a good SMALL ate to the new toddlers- just like what you tell me everyday. Because Mommie will continue TRYING to be a better person in every single way.
I wish for you to retain that wild-eye wonder, to constantly ask mommie and teachers, and auntie and lolamie the never-ending questions you always have. Because mommie and your family will never tire trying to answer those questions.
I wish for you to be constantly aware of your efforts, to practice writing your numbers just because you want to write them beautifully. Because Mommie will never tire of filling the fridge door with these "works of art".
You will never fully know, Co, how much you've changed me as a person, or how you have taught me to love truly, unconditionally, purely. Or how much you have put meaning into sooo many people's lives. But I hope you that one day, you will understand how much I really, truly love you. and how much you are truly loved by everyone in the family.
Tonight, Sleep tight and dream those beautiful dreams, baby girl, for there are still a million and one nights for us to do dress rehearsals and to paint our nails- or to listen to the songs and to chase after dreams. There will be more to come, and I promise you, I will always be here to hold you hand. or your trolley, or your umbrella. Or even your pumpkin of a cat.
I love you, baby girl. And that will never, ever change.
Love always,
Mommie
Saturday, May 14, 2011
The Reader. And the water Jug
Today was really stressful. Scary stressful.
I have never really been scared this way- shaking and wanting to cry but couldn't.
Panic filled my insides but I kept a firm and stern appearance. Like warrior in a battlefield. Like a mommy in a kangaroo court. Like a customer who walked in on a robbery and got stuck in a lock down.
Yes, I got stuck in a lock down, with policemen harassing everyone through intimidation. The 'victim' of the pickpocket screamed robbery and the guards appeared and the metal doors went down with a heavy clang. I stood there with my hand barely touching the priority number and half of my foot under the metal doors. I have always been claustrophobic so when the metal doors rolled down, and I stuck in this lil space of a corner, I was almost going to hyperventilate. After an hour of CCTV examination, frisking, screaming clients and a nagging feeling that a frame up can happen. Or worse, that the pickpockets may have guns, we were finally let out.
I shudder at the thought. I have never really been so scared. :(
On our way home, we got into a cab from hell, who threatened us and pushed me to hysteria. I had the wits to jot down the plate number, and cab company, and threatened the cab driver back. I was not about to cower and show this shit of a driver that I was almost gonna panic. And of course, my shrieking worked this time.
And I reported to the police.
The end: I got a really bad tummy and an insomnia that I couldn't shake off.
But before those, the day was beautiful.
The wedding.
The playtime.
The dinner.
Focusing my energy and my thoughts on the happier ones now. And pushing the negative events out. Life is soooo precious, sooo unpredictable. So beautiful because we make it so.
(BUT, I don't really support this campaign, I happen to think the RH Bill is right on time)
After the wedding, lil one and I skipped the reception and traded it for a dinner of pizza and shakes, then went on to have some play fun.
Tonight, as I watch my little girl sleep soundly, I thank God she hasn't understood the panic in my voice, when we were in the cab. I thank God she was in the playhouse when I went down to buy that reader, and she wasn't with me when I was stuck in that lock out. I thank God that my one bar mobile phone worked and allowed me to call the nanny and the house so my family would know.
I thank God for keeping my wits intact, and for keeping me alert and for finally, bringing us home safe.
I have never really been scared this way- shaking and wanting to cry but couldn't.
Panic filled my insides but I kept a firm and stern appearance. Like warrior in a battlefield. Like a mommy in a kangaroo court. Like a customer who walked in on a robbery and got stuck in a lock down.
Yes, I got stuck in a lock down, with policemen harassing everyone through intimidation. The 'victim' of the pickpocket screamed robbery and the guards appeared and the metal doors went down with a heavy clang. I stood there with my hand barely touching the priority number and half of my foot under the metal doors. I have always been claustrophobic so when the metal doors rolled down, and I stuck in this lil space of a corner, I was almost going to hyperventilate. After an hour of CCTV examination, frisking, screaming clients and a nagging feeling that a frame up can happen. Or worse, that the pickpockets may have guns, we were finally let out.
I shudder at the thought. I have never really been so scared. :(
On our way home, we got into a cab from hell, who threatened us and pushed me to hysteria. I had the wits to jot down the plate number, and cab company, and threatened the cab driver back. I was not about to cower and show this shit of a driver that I was almost gonna panic. And of course, my shrieking worked this time.
And I reported to the police.
The end: I got a really bad tummy and an insomnia that I couldn't shake off.
But before those, the day was beautiful.
The wedding.
The playtime.
The dinner.
Focusing my energy and my thoughts on the happier ones now. And pushing the negative events out. Life is soooo precious, sooo unpredictable. So beautiful because we make it so.
(BUT, I don't really support this campaign, I happen to think the RH Bill is right on time)
After the wedding, lil one and I skipped the reception and traded it for a dinner of pizza and shakes, then went on to have some play fun.
Tonight, as I watch my little girl sleep soundly, I thank God she hasn't understood the panic in my voice, when we were in the cab. I thank God she was in the playhouse when I went down to buy that reader, and she wasn't with me when I was stuck in that lock out. I thank God that my one bar mobile phone worked and allowed me to call the nanny and the house so my family would know.
I thank God for keeping my wits intact, and for keeping me alert and for finally, bringing us home safe.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Sweet Dreams..
Me and little girl had a few laughs before hitting bed. Coming home to this wonderful daughter of mine is the best thing at the end of every single day. And the very best thing at the very beginning too.
Friday is rolling home soon!
Like No Other ♥
Wow, this morning I greeted sunrise with Adele playing and a cup of wonderful choco. sat for a while, just listening to the a sleepy town waking up. Listened to the sound my heart beating, the thoughts swimming in my head and a little voice from the heavens, telling me how beautiful life is. If only I remember to stop, sit a while and just feel.
It has been ages-- centuries! since I have done this. It's always that I have been so busy or so tired to wake up early and sit out in front- with my thoughts and my heart in the palm of my hand. That's me doing my thing, participating in the rat race.
But today, it's different. I feel like I have settled in nicely into my new job. The people are wonderful, to say the least. The workload is manageable and the whole consumer lending thing is a relief to my tired old, working self.
And it's a bit of a strange feeling. Strange, but really peaceful- really similar to this early morning feel.
Ever since I have decided to jump into this, it has always been me jumping from one place to another; always been me squeezing minutes, dragging proposals; it has always been a mixture of pressure to deliver, unnecessary worry and a constant nagging feeling that I should just relax. AND after much much prodding, I did.
I let go. I sat back a bit, took it a day at a time, a week at a time. And then, I found myself on track. Well, on my way lolz.
I found that there is actually a weekend for me and lil one. There is actually more of that beautiful time together.
Last Sunday was extra special, we celebrated Mothers' Day with a few dvds, some junk food and a whole Sunday at the mall with family. We had sundae and fries, rode the ponies, took a lot of pictures, and went around shopping for little girl's school stuff.
A lot of times, in the middle of US shopping, I found myself wondering where has the three years gone. My baby is already this little girl running around with her pink trolley, choosing nice shoes and water jugs. And being the sweetest girl that she is, she never forgets to throw in a hug, a smile or two my way.
It's the best Mommie's day ever.
And as I sit here and wonder where we will be 20, 30 years from now, I grin on the thought that life is so wonderful when we fill it with beautiful moments.
God has been indeed wonderful to me. ♥
It has been ages-- centuries! since I have done this. It's always that I have been so busy or so tired to wake up early and sit out in front- with my thoughts and my heart in the palm of my hand. That's me doing my thing, participating in the rat race.
But today, it's different. I feel like I have settled in nicely into my new job. The people are wonderful, to say the least. The workload is manageable and the whole consumer lending thing is a relief to my tired old, working self.
And it's a bit of a strange feeling. Strange, but really peaceful- really similar to this early morning feel.
Ever since I have decided to jump into this, it has always been me jumping from one place to another; always been me squeezing minutes, dragging proposals; it has always been a mixture of pressure to deliver, unnecessary worry and a constant nagging feeling that I should just relax. AND after much much prodding, I did.
I let go. I sat back a bit, took it a day at a time, a week at a time. And then, I found myself on track. Well, on my way lolz.
I found that there is actually a weekend for me and lil one. There is actually more of that beautiful time together.
Last Sunday was extra special, we celebrated Mothers' Day with a few dvds, some junk food and a whole Sunday at the mall with family. We had sundae and fries, rode the ponies, took a lot of pictures, and went around shopping for little girl's school stuff.
A lot of times, in the middle of US shopping, I found myself wondering where has the three years gone. My baby is already this little girl running around with her pink trolley, choosing nice shoes and water jugs. And being the sweetest girl that she is, she never forgets to throw in a hug, a smile or two my way.
It's the best Mommie's day ever.
And as I sit here and wonder where we will be 20, 30 years from now, I grin on the thought that life is so wonderful when we fill it with beautiful moments.
God has been indeed wonderful to me. ♥
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